INTENTIONAL WORK IN SHA ALLAH

May the peace, mercy and the blessing of my Beloved be upon you as we begin the holy month and all through our lives. Amen.
I asked Allah to let me see the month of Ramadan in good health for some reason I kept thinking I might not live to witness it. AlhamduLILLAH I am here and a lot of people I know are not, whether we will make it to the end or not is totally up to Him but this is my intentional move for the days I am gifted to see.  I want to change and do better not just this Ramadan but even after. I will not do too much, I will do as much acts of worship as I will do out of Ramadan in sha Allah. I will pray my obligatory salats on time as there is nothing more beloved to Him than that. I will say my zikr especially istigfar and the testimony. I will better my relations with my husband, my kids his wife too in sha Allah, My neighbours, and everyone I meet is going to get a confident salaam accompanied by my biggest smile, in sha Allah. For in Islam it is not how much you do it like it is the intention when doing it.
I will be thankful and humble. I will pray my tahajjud, this is a big personal struggle. I will be honest because hey, nobody can beat me anyway. I will perfect my prayers by learning how to pray better. I learn about the Qur’an and our prophet. I will learn the Hadith Qudsi. I will learn more about Allah and having complete faith in His decisions for me. I will be content with what life comes with.
Lastly I want to share a hadith I learnt. When two people are not in good terms with each other, Allah delays accepting their good deeds. He will tell His angels to hang on until they reconcile. Allah repeats that he is the most forgiving the most merciful but he is also the most just AL-‘Adl he will not forgive the sin of one against the other until he who has been wronged has forgiven. Your million istigfars will not make the sin of backbiting or slandering your brother or sister to be forgiven, except you do the needful of asking their forgiveness. The beautiful thing is you don’t have to go into details there is so much happiness in the hearts during Ramadan that people will forgive you if you just apologise for the wrong against them. May He accept it from us. May we be better Muslims. Assalaamu alaikum.
Ps: what would you want to work on this Ramadan? what is your Ramadan resolution for this year? Share with me, you might get my reward when I work on it too, hopefully. 
with lots of love, 
Mariya. 

I FELL IN LOVE YET AGAIN

 Peace unto you fam. I saw a post on social media recently. It says something about… She is working on two things, herself and her progress. I felt I should be doing that and only that too. So I started thinking on ways to better myself and to develop personally. Along the way I fell in love completely and absolutely. It is not like the love for my babies A and Y, or my best friends or my husband (God I love that being) or even Umma (May she always be happy). It’s sudden yet definite. It is something that has always been with me yet not really because, well, I never really gave it much thought.

It is my ISLAM. It’s the religion. As a person out to work on myself I did a little research and found that absolutely nothing has a positive impact towards your growth than the religion. As a muslim I already know it’s a complete guide, because I was told so. Well it was right! It is a guide that covers all the motivational books, talks, lectures and everything on self-help or development that you have ever come across and much much more. And the more you find out the more you fall hopelessly deeper. It is my new love. And I love this honeymoon phase hence me sharing with you.

As much as I want, I might not always feel exactly this level of excitement for it. You know what I will hold on to keep floating and trying? The fact that my Allah, He loves me more than my mother and definitely more than my husband. If the feeling of love for my religion gets low, I will hang on to the knowledge that He loves me. Even when I did not know how much, now that I have an idea how much I know He is there, through it all and even after it is over. I know there is nothing like a missed chance or opportunity or bad luck. Everything is planned and every plan is in my favor (it might not look so from my point of view) but the One that plans is the One that loves me and I love my Allah too.

I pray you all find this love, cherish this love and keep this love for in reality it is the only true love that would not end up in a heart break. Wishing you peace and His mercy and blessings.

PS: what do you think about my new found love? Have you found it too? Is it a keeper? How much more should I work towards strengthening it? Any advice? Let’s talk down below.